I’ve written bits and pieces over the past few years and every time I put something out there, someone has encouraged me to write more. Y’all have told me what my transparency means to you, how my vulnerability was touching or that I am so funny. I’ve toyed with the idea of writing a blog for years, but this blog, in my mind, is putting ME out there for public scrutiny. I’m thick skinned, I can take it. But what if I can’t? So, for years, I’ve had the idea of this blog bouncing around in my head, failing before it starts all because of the fears. I was so scared I couldn’t even think of where I would begin! No. Nope. Not Doin’ IT!
Then one day a couple of weeks ago, I had the opportunity to talk to one of my mom’s friends who has often encouraged this blog idea. I was bending her ear for some advice and she let me ramble for about three minutes before she interrupted me to point out that the common theme in our conversation was fear. I’m afraid of this, I’m afraid of that. What if I fail? I’d never really thought about it from that perspective. I’m always the one encouraging my boys to just give it a shot. So how was I so afraid to even try writing?
That very same evening while scrolling Facebook and looking for another reason to not follow through, a friend had posted a video about a devotion she was reading. It was a scripture I was familiar with and a story I’ve heard taught all my life, but her take away from her study was these two questions: What gift has God given you that you aren’t using because you think you are inadequate and do you not believe that if you are obedient He will provide a way for you to use it even when you see no possible way? Well, I don’t need to be hit in the head with a 2X4 to get the message. Ok Lord, I’ll write the blog. Sink or swim, I’ll trust the gift of writing that you have given me and I’ll put myself out there for the world to see. And in that moment, I knew where to start. I knew what to write and I knew that now is the time. My time.
So love me or hate me, here ya go! Over the next few weeks I’ll be overcoming my fears, but let’s not get carried away. As much as I grew up with a mama who said, “what’s the worst that could happen?” I also grew up with an accountant Daddy who said, (especially in response to my mama) “you could die”. I’ve no intention of facing my fear of heights, flying, fire or public speaking. For heaven sake, I haven’t lost my mind. But I will be introducing the characters in my life, sharing my ‘out of the box’ perspective on some things I’m passionate about, telling some funny life stories and figuring out what y’all want to read and what you don’t. I’d appreciate you “subscribing” and “following” me. I’d Love for you to share my posts with your friends and family so they can see how fabulous I am (or am not?) and I’d LOVE LOVE for you to leave me a comment below (be gentle) so I know if I’m on the right track and if I should prepare for my Sally Field moment. “You like me, You really like me!”